Should I stay? Or Should I go?, Should I try to fix it?,  or Should I look for something new?,  Should I take less money for a more stable position (job)?, or Should I keep living good is a position that could end any minute Should I look in my past to help in my future?,  or should I take a whole new approach?, Should I keep fighting for it?, or should I let it go….

All I know is I make decisions based on what adds more peace in my life. It’s like life is so different then it was Ten, Five.. or even 2 Years ago.. Things that I would kill for at 25 don’t mean anything to me at 27… When you are younger you live for today… you wake up and just do it.. as you grow older you try to find out what can be done today that can make tomorrow easer, less stressful and more predictable planed and peaceful.
I think growing up as a single child has its disadvantages but defiantly has its advantages… You enjoy and respect peace when you have a lot of it..   It’s like money when you make a cretin amount of money a year you respect it a whole hell of a lot when you have to make less. So you make-work twice as hard as the next guy to get there again because you’ve tasted it before.

As a only child you really learn to love your self… and you learn how to completely function with out others needed companionship or opinions.  You do enjoy entertaining other but you can go on with out missing a beat by your self. A relationship with other becomes an elective and not a mandatory thing.

And I’m at a point in my life where I want some consistency not just with a relationship but with life in general or things other then a relationship (that’s easy).
When your 20 you save money to buy something you could not afford with 1 check.
At 27 when you save money it’s to have peace in knowing you can make it if you lose your job or something major happens and you need money.

At 20 you want you car to be and attention getter!
At 27 you want to nice car but you also want to be able to park it and get some sleep.
At 20 you want a nice apartment
At 27 you want a nice house!
So I’m just wondering what am I going to think at 30??

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Nothing stays the same. <o:p></o:p>

You can’t see it until it’s happened. You feel something happening each day. It’s different from yesterday and you don’t know what’s coming tomorrow. Change happens in good times and bad. When times are bad you think it’s never going to change, it seems time just stand still. It’s hard to remember the sun is gone shine when things are bad and or painful. You have to really remember a change is gonna come if you hang in there you’ll see. You got to have courage in those times, it takes faith and strength, and you must remember everything changes but God. Change, it can move as slow as the hands on a clock or fast as lightning. You won’t know what hit you. It can happen overnight , or things can seem as nothing has change and when you realize this is your life you don’t recognize it. Change can be good for you it can be bad for you. When it’s good, oh Lord its good. You want it to stick around forever. Change can be so good it will scare you. They call change seasons, like I said before god gives us hints about how life works, looking a nature and how the seasons change is our indication that our life must change also. Some change we will never fully understand. But in time and if you pay attention we get some clarity. We have to be thankful of the bad times as well as the good. That’s what the Lord tells us. Its make us more appreciative of life and its gifts. It helps to treat our fellow man with respect. It makes what’s up come down and what’s down come up. It’s what makes the rich poor and the poor rich. Change keeps things balanced. It’s don’t always seem fair but it is. It just takes time to see and appreciate change. The world is rotating and changing so you can never replay a day of life. Isn’t it funny that you can’t change what happen yesterday, there is no retakes, all you can do is learn and move on. Take time in your thoughts and decision this day will never replay again. Life is all we have, give it the thought and respect that each day give us.<o:p></o:p>

I didn’t always like you change, but I sometimes needed you<o:p></o:p>

*I grew to know and respect you Change*

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